Wishful Speaking
Posted by Cottontimer on 06 May 2007 | Tagged as: Career
This past week I’ve been busy getting myself on a new career path. Part of my efforts involve emailing everyone to tell them that I’ve left b5media and can be found at my new independent genetics blog – Eye on DNA. Almost every person has asked why I left b5.
The most important reason for moving on is that I wanted to refocus and concentrate solely on genetics and science. But another reason is that I wanted a new challenge. I’d learned enough about social media and professional blogging to be able to strike out on my own (with some much appreciated help from Christina). And although I still subscribe to over 50 blogging-related feeds, it was time to step outside my comfort zone of 18+ months.
After a few recent conversations with knowledgeable people (who shall remain nameless because of NDA’s and such), I feel somewhat confident that I can parlay the reputation I’ve built for myself as an industry expert into biotech consulting. I’m still not sure how it will turn out but there is already one problem I have to overcome.
I must stop using self-defeating language like: “I hope I can move into biotech consulting” or “I wish to return to genetics and biotech.”
John Chow said it best:
You know why a person with a loser’s mentality always use words like someday, I hope or I wish? He does it because it gives him an out and not be accountable to his word. If he was to place a time limit on the goal and doesn’t do it, he fails, and a loser hates failing. Winners have no fear of failing because they know success is made from a string of failures.
I won’t admit to being afraid of failing since I’ve certainly failed before and gotten back up. And it helps that my income is supplementary rather than primary so I don’t have any real pressure NOT to fail. (Thank you, Marv!) It is true, however, that I’m afraid of humiliation and am trying to give myself an out.
I figure if the project proposals I’ve turned in or talks fall through, I can always plug away at Eye on DNA and have plenty of ideas for expanding that would keep me busy for a while. The thing is, I don’t believe expert blogging in this form will last forever. And, I want to be involved in the genome revolution rather than just be a bystander.
So, instead of telling people what I hope or wish to be doing, I’m going out there to do it. No matter how many emails it takes or how many disappointments I have to endure, I will find some way to get involved.
Damn. It’s scary just to say this out loud.
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I don’t know how I found this blog but anyway I find myself studying it today from what I call a MMOL (make money online) perspective. I need to write a few more reviews for my site to complete my posts for May 2007.
I want to say that saying “I hope” is not necessarily self defeatist. To be modest is not a sign of weakness or self-loathing.
Use language as it suits YOU in terms that you think are polite (or not) and appropriate for your audience, without mis-representing yourself or whatever you are intending to communicate.
I hope to eat. I intend to eat….both speak of a future that does not exist.
It is okay to talk about the future. It is also okay to talk about today.
If focusing your utterances in the present tense about what you are doing now makes you feel better, so be it. However don’t let anybody else dictate to you how you should express yourself.
To dream out loud with friends, confidants, people who love and trust and respect you is very cool in my book. Your dream out-loud audience might consist of just you and a diary–not necessarily a PUBLIC diary.
It’s all good, as long as it truly serves YOU.
I agree with you 100% by the way about the transitory nature of the current phenomena that we see going on the Internet, the net the web whatever.
Why be one of the mice in the maze, on the playing field where the rules are constantly changing and the walls shifting? Why do that when you can be an architect at the controls? Or better yet in another arena altogether, in vulnerable to the whims of Googrosoft.
People are concerned about income and very few are using income to buy assets that actually matter like shelter (WITHOUT a mortgage! In the US, as you know “debt” = asset), private fresh water source (rainwater, well, whatever), private energy source (photovoltaic, biodiesel, windmills whatever) etc. etc.
Most don’t get what’s going on globally vis-a-vis fundamental resources (fresh water, food) environmental contamination, genetic contamination for “profit”, fiat currency, inflation (over supply of fiat currency), worldwide central bank shenanigans and naked short selling prevalent in the US stock market.
Humiliation is to lose face. Okay if fear of that keeps you producing good work, USE it. If it only makes you sick (ulcers, headache, personality disorder, whatever, whatever) then it’s time to dump the cultural baggage with focused intentional action.
However, it’s EASIER and therefore more practical, to use ALL of what you already have, cultural baggage and all. Use ALL of what you have to get from where you are to where you envision yourself being.
I hope that you are building a team so that “plugging away at Eye on DNA” as well as the development and launching of your other projects ALL happen. Oh, you MANAGE the managerS of the team.
If you have any extra cash, buy gold and silver (physical) and keep it outside of US (check goldmoney.com). Then you’ll be able to fund WHATEVER project you want. You won’t have to take your project to someone for their approval.
“The thing is, I don’t believe expert blogging in this form will last forever.”
I concur 100% . We have to keep this under our hat; we already understand it’s not a good idea to be part of a herd whose direction is so controlled by, shall I say, puppet-masters?
“And, I want to be involved in the genome revolution rather than just be a bystander.” Pursue your passion and take care of the fundamentals for yourself and those that depend on you with regard to food, water, shelter, power, sanitation, communication…(You got that I mean owing a home which produces for itself, for the household food, water, electricity…in surplus.)
Yeah, believe it or not I collect the seeds of the food that I eat. I suspect they will come in handy, in my lifetime.
You can probably guess why I don’t eat corn any more.
My friend, so to speak, all you have to do is write a flow chart: from A to Z. Break down the steps to bite sized pieces that each take less than, let’s say, 4 hours to complete. Any task that is projected to take longer needs to be further broken down.
Then you get out your calendar. I’m talking pen and paper and you start dropping tasks into boxes. So every day that dawns you know what is on your to-do plate that will be landing you closer to where you envision yourself.
And of course you do this for 3 or 4 days of every week…cuz if something doesn’t get done you can use the “extra” time to make up for it….
Yeah, I bet it’s scary to say this out loud…public-ly to boot!
You understand of course that it’s as much a cultural thing as a semantic ting…
When a typical third or more generation USian says, “Let’s get together for lunch” it means they are not particularly keen on having lunch with you. Why? No date, no place no time specified…Same person might say, “I hope to be rich.” Again no date, and no clear/measurable definition of “rich” so obviously success is unlikely.
It’s different to say: By January 2013 I will have 5 biotech patents. or I hope to …or I do…Whatever tense we are talking about a future event (hellooo “2013”)
You may not need to “fool” yourself by using present tense for future events. Just make sure to feed your subconscious with whatever it takes so that it directs your behavior “as if” it’s a done deal and there are just a few details that you need to take care of.
You know not all languages have verb tenses…time in indicated in other ways…
Don’t get tripped up in the semantics and don’t let some external person, or proverb or whatever rock your world or even ENTER your world if he/she/it is not contributing positively.
It’s easy to be a critic….even a long winded one like me.
This was a waaay long comment. Thanks for reading and deleting/editing as you see fit.
All the best,
Nia
I’ve had several people as ME why you left b5media too — I’ll point them in the direction of this post for sure
Congrats again Hsien. You’re really making your mark in this world
You won’t know unless, until, you try. You’ve already made a mark upon the world and there are many more you’ll make.
As one scardy cat to another, I’m rooting for you Hsien! Go for it! You have nothing to lose. Humiliation is for the other guys!
Thanks you, Nia, Kristina, and Calvin. Here I go!!
Oops. And Gayla too! I really appreciate the encouragement and votes of confidence.
Congratulations, Hsien! YOU already have a good following and a reputation because of YOU and not because of b5media. Of course, being with b5 helped and taught you a lot but being YOU will help you succeed in your new goal.
Thanks, Melissa! Things are going pretty well so far. Cross your fingers for me!